Christmas Eve

This year Christmas eve is a very special day for me ... caused i went to my collegue church at Woodland .. even the place is quite far from my house and i have to get there right after i finish my work.. quite rushing that time... then i met up with my old school friend Jian An... coincidencely he came to SG for a short vacation at his cousin house... so i invited him to joined along ... that time when i reach there... was still raining .... but i still managed to get there with the help of my collegue..
erm ... quite fun in the church ..there lots of programme... and at the end i brought back an exchange present and a photo with santa... wahahah...

"Merry Christmas"

我内心对感情并不专一

This feelings has been bothered with me quite a long time till now, I do not know what I really want or what I really need/desire, outward appearance and inward appearance of me are totally two different world, sometime I don't even know who I really am... I shared my problem with some close friend of mine.. they think I'm such a bitch, a guy treated you like a pricess and sacrifice a lot but still you wanted for a break up. Sometime feelings are hard to describe.

8th december 2008
今天，我终于得到了解脱。我们的关系也到此为止。真的很对不起，不过也很谢谢你。虽然我已经说出口，也不知道你的答案，希望你会尊重我的决定。我的决定是不会改变的，如果你是那么的执着，那我只好受苦。而且这不是爱，事情还会再发生下去。

我想一个人好好的活下去，
在我的身边不一定要有情侣，
可是却不能少了家人和朋友。
我不希望别人追求我，
不希望别人来烦我，
就让我一个人好好的活下去。